There was a time when you feel like a tiny space that you were in was your whole world.
There was a time when you thought that the people you surrounded yourself with represented the whole population of human on earth.
There was a time when you thought that people have never walked in your shoes while the fact was the shoes that you wore were not big enough for them to put their feet into.
There was a time when everything started to feel better. Looking back, you never know whether the world has changed into a better place or you have changed into a better individual.
I have just finished watching 13 Reasons Why, which depicts a death of a high school student named Hannah, and I can’t keep my mind shut as the series leave a profound effect on me. So I feel the urge to write this post.
My highschool life was way behind (damn, almost 7 years), it was difficult but nothing compared to Hannah’s. At that time, my mother took me to see a psychologist a couple of times which I was actually quite ashamed at that time that I told people I saw a doctor. My mother was knowledgeable enough to realize that there must be something wrong when I felt so anxious and lost sleep at night (seriously, I was so afraid to go to sleep because I thought I wouldn’t be able to wake up again and I had no idea why I thought that way). Thankfully, she knew how to handle that issue very well and thought that asking a help from a psychologist is as normal as consulting about your health to a doctor.
Reflecting to my experience of asking help, I find it so heartwrenching that Hannah did not get a chance for a professional help by the time she needed it the most. Her parents were not even aware of the issue as she acted normal at home as if nothing’s wrong with her school life. Or I assume Hannah acted normal because she did not want her parents to be worried as their family-run store was broke. But keeping a problem to ourself always has always taken its own toll.
The second thing in this movie that bothered me was how Hannah was corrupted by her friends (they don’t even deserve to be called friends, by the way). Some people do walk into one’s life just to ruin it and to leave a massive void. It saddened me that the only time Hannah met someone who was keen to affectionally touch her was when she got so traumatic with human touch. This point leads me to my third point.
At first I thought that Hannah was just too overly dramatic, until I watched an episode when someone invaded her personal area without her consent. Then I began to understand why she felt wasted and did what she did. I believe it would be difficult to confront the perpetrator in such situation because they can be manipulative at times. In a society where the victims are often blamed, it’s also a bit terrifying for the victims to admit of such bad things have occured to them. I know this is only a series but I can’t help to wonder if this terrible thing is still happening in the States, a country where sex education is a part of curriculum, can the situation be worse in a country which doesn’t provide sex education at schools, such as Indonesia?
I know that sex is considered a taboo here. But like it or not, people do it and we need to do something to address any issues that entail. Some people might argue that it’s a huge sin, but so does corruption. We don’t want corruption nor “free sex” (I don’t really like this term actually, but that’s how people say it) to happen, but they do happen out there and we need to do something. If we can teach anti corruption at school, why can’t we teach sex education? Because it’s not about encouraging young people to have sex but to make them aware about consent, safety, and consequences of having sex.
Lastly, I don’t have younger siblings. But if I have one who is still in high school, I want to let him or her know that the world is so vast. Hold on and in no time you will find a space that is big enough to fit who you really are. And you always have a choice by the way, say it outloud, and make sure you make the best possible choice because it doesn’t only affect your life but also those of around you.